Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Feeling Frustrated

I am working from home today and for those of you who don't know, my ex-wife has been diagnosed with terminal cancer of the spinal fluid. I moved out of my apartment and had to move back into the house I owned before. But with Jenna in college, I am able to work one day a week from home to ensure that someone is able to keep an eye on my ex-wife, Randy.

Well, since she has gotten up today she has been making my life a living nightmare. It is can you pick up Olivia at school. She was found to have nits and the school determined it was caught from kids at school. Then it was go to the drug store for the treatment, take Olivia back to school. Go to the post office and mail a package for Randy. As soon as I get back and start to work again, its "Can you fix the dryer? The exhaust hose came off." i said I would, but that wasn't fast enough. "Its 82 in here and I can't stand it!" It is about this time, I lose my cool and say in a loud voice. "As soon as I finish this work task!" so I fix the problem, takes all of 5 minutes, but now I am getting the cold shoulder because I raised my voice.

I really don't know what to do. She is acting like we are a married couple and we are not. This attitude of hers of when I ask for something I want done now attitude was one of the reasons we got divorced. i am able to work at home, because I usually get more done at home than I do at work, because there are less interruptions. But not today. I have barely accomplished anything. I have two basketball games to officiate tonight, so it looks like a late night.

I have quite a bit on my mind and I really didn't get much sleep as i went to bed about 11:30 pm and i woke up around 3:00 AM. I laid on the couch till 5:30 AM and maybe fell asleep for an hour or so. Looks like tomorrow is really going to suck. My question to you is Do I have a right to be frustrated at Randy because I am not accomplishing what I want to today? or should i just overlook her demands because of her illness? But another part of my brain wonders Is she playing this illness up for all its worth? And finally, if wasn't for the kids would I even put up with all of this?

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